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am honored to be with you today at your commencement from one of
the finest universities in the world. I never graduated from
college. Truth be told, this is the closest I've ever gotten to
a college graduation. Today I want to tell you three stories
from my life. That's it. No big deal. Just three stories.
The first
story is about connecting the dots.
I dropped out
of Reed College after the first 6 months, but then stayed around
as a drop-in for another 18 months or so before I really quit.
So why did I drop out?
It started
before I was born. My biological mother was a young, unwed
college graduate student, and she decided to put me up for
adoption. She felt very strongly that I should be adopted by
college graduates, so everything was all set for me to be
adopted at birth by a lawyer and his wife. Except that when I
popped out they decided at the last minute that they really
wanted a girl. So my parents, who were on a waiting list, got a
call in the middle of the night asking: "We have an unexpected
baby boy; do you want him?" They said: "Of course." My
biological mother later found out that my mother had never
graduated from college and that my father had never graduated
from high school. She refused to sign the final adoption papers.
She only relented a few months later when my parents promised
that I would someday go to college.
And 17 years
later I did go to college. But I naively chose a college that
was almost as expensive as Stanford, and all of my working-class
parents' savings were being spent on my college tuition. After
six months, I couldn't see the value in it. I had no idea what I
wanted to do with my life and no idea how college was going to
help me figure it out. And here I was spending all of the money
my parents had saved their entire life. So I decided to drop out
and trust that it would all work out OK. It was pretty scary at
the time, but looking back it was one of the best decisions I
ever made. The minute I dropped out I could stop taking the
required classes that didn't interest me, and begin dropping in
on the ones that looked interesting.
It wasn't all
romantic. I didn't have a dorm room, so I slept on the floor in
friends' rooms, I returned coke bottles for the 5¢ deposits to
buy food with, and I would walk the 7 miles across town every
Sunday night to get one good meal a week at the Hare Krishna
temple. I loved it. And much of what I stumbled into by
following my curiosity and intuition turned out to be priceless
later on. Let me give you one example:
Reed College
at that time offered perhaps the best calligraphy instruction in
the country. Throughout the campus every poster, every label on
every drawer, was beautifully hand calligraphed. Because I had
dropped out and didn't have to take the normal classes, I
decided to take a calligraphy class to learn how to do this. I
learned about serif and san serif typefaces, about varying the
amount of space between different letter combinations, about
what makes great typography great. It was beautiful, historical,
artistically subtle in a way that science can't capture, and I
found it fascinating.
None of this
had even a hope of any practical application in my life. But ten
years later, when we were designing the first Macintosh
computer, it all came back to me. And we designed it all into
the Mac. It was the first computer with beautiful typography. If
I had never dropped in on that single course in college, the Mac
would have never had multiple typefaces or proportionally spaced
fonts. And since Windows just copied the Mac, its likely that no
personal computer would have them. If I had never dropped out, I
would have never dropped in on this calligraphy class, and
personal computers might not have the wonderful typography that
they do. Of course it was impossible to connect the dots looking
forward when I was in college. But it was very, very clear
looking backwards ten years later.
Again, you
can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect
them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will
somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something -
your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has
never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my
life.
My second
story is about love and loss.
I was lucky –
I found what I loved to do early in life. Woz and I started
Apple in my parents garage when I was 20. We worked hard, and in
10 years Apple had grown from just the two of us in a garage
into a $2 billion company with over 4000 employees. We had just
released our finest creation - the Macintosh - a year earlier,
and I had just turned 30. And then I got fired. How can you get
fired from a company you started? Well, as Apple grew we hired
someone who I thought was very talented to run the company with
me, and for the first year or so things went well. But then our
visions of the future began to diverge and eventually we had a
falling out. When we did, our Board of Directors sided with him.
So at 30 I was out. And very publicly out. What had been the
focus of my entire adult life was gone, and it was devastating.
I really
didn't know what to do for a few months. I felt that I had let
the previous generation of entrepreneurs down - that I had
dropped the baton as it was being passed to me. I met with David
Packard and Bob Noyce and tried to apologize for screwing up so
badly. I was a very public failure, and I even thought about
running away from the valley. But something slowly began to dawn
on me – I still loved what I did. The turn of events at Apple
had not changed that one bit. I had been rejected, but I was
still in love. And so I decided to start over.
I didn't see
it then, but it turned out that getting fired from Apple was the
best thing that could have ever happened to me. The heaviness of
being successful was replaced by the lightness of being a
beginner again, less sure about everything. It freed me to enter
one of the most creative periods of my life.
During the
next five years, I started a company named NeXT, another company
named Pixar, and fell in love with an amazing woman who would
become my wife. Pixar went on to create the worlds first
computer animated feature film, Toy Story, and is now the
most successful animation studio in the world. In a remarkable
turn of events, Apple bought NeXT, I retuned to Apple, and the
technology we developed at NeXT is at the heart of Apple's
current renaissance. And Laurene and I have a wonderful family
together.
I'm pretty
sure none of this would have happened if I hadn't been fired
from Apple. It was awful tasting medicine, but I guess the
patient needed it. Sometimes life hits you in the head with a
brick. Don't lose faith. I'm convinced that the only thing that
kept me going was that I loved what I did. You've got to find
what you love. And that is as true for your work as it is for
your lovers. Your work is going to fill a large part of your
life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you
believe is great work. And the only way to do great work is to
love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking.
Don't settle. As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when
you find it. And, like any great relationship, it just gets
better and better as the years roll on. So keep looking until
you find it. Don't settle.
My third story
is about death.
When I was 17,
I read a quote that went something like: "If you live each day
as if it was your last, someday you'll most certainly be right."
It made an impression on me, and since then, for the past 33
years, I have looked in the mirror every morning and asked
myself: "If today were the last day of my life, would I want to
do what I am about to do today?" And whenever the answer has
been "No" for too many days in a row, I know I need to change
something.
Remembering
that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever
encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because
almost everything – all external expectations, all pride, all
fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away
in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important.
Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to
avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are
already naked. There is no reason not to follow your heart.
About a year
ago I was diagnosed with cancer. I had a scan at 7:30 in the
morning, and it clearly showed a tumor on my pancreas. I didn't
even know what a pancreas was. The doctors told me this was
almost certainly a type of cancer that is incurable, and that I
should expect to live no longer than three to six months. My
doctor advised me to go home and get my affairs in order, which
is doctor's code for prepare to die. It means to try to tell
your kids everything you thought you'd have the next 10 years to
tell them in just a few months. It means to make sure everything
is buttoned up so that it will be as easy as possible for your
family. It means to say your goodbyes.
I lived with
that diagnosis all day. Later that evening I had a biopsy, where
they stuck an endoscope down my throat, through my stomach and
into my intestines, put a needle into my pancreas and got a few
cells from the tumor. I was sedated, but my wife, who was there,
told me that when they viewed the cells under a microscope the
doctors started crying because it turned out to be a very rare
form of pancreatic cancer that is curable with surgery. I had
the surgery and I'm fine now.
This was the
closest I've been to facing death, and I hope its the closest I
get for a few more decades. Having lived through it, I can now
say this to you with a bit more certainty than when death was a
useful but purely intellectual concept:
No one wants
to die. Even people who want to go to heaven don't want to die
to get there. And yet death is the destination we all share. No
one has ever escaped it. And that is as it should be, because
Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is
Life's change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the
new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from
now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away.
Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.
Your time is
limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Don't be
trapped by dogma - which is living with the results of other
people's thinking. Don't let the noise of other's opinions drown
out your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage
to follow your heart and intuition. They somehow already know
what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.
When I was
young, there was an amazing publication called The Whole
Earth Catalog, which was one of the bibles of my generation.
It was created by a fellow named Stewart Brand not far from here
in Menlo Park, and he brought it to life with his poetic touch.
This was in the late 1960's, before personal computers and
desktop publishing, so it was all made with typewriters,
scissors, and polaroid cameras. It was sort of like Google in
paperback form, 35 years before Google came along: it was
idealistic, and overflowing with neat tools and great notions.
Stewart and
his team put out several issues of The Whole Earth Catalog,
and then when it had run its course, they put out a final issue.
It was the mid-1970s, and I was your age. On the back cover of
their final issue was a photograph of an early morning country
road, the kind you might find yourself hitchhiking on if you
were so adventurous. Beneath it were the words: "Stay Hungry.
Stay Foolish." It was their farewell message as they signed off.
Stay Hungry. Stay Foolish. And I have always wished that for
myself. And now, as you graduate to begin anew, I wish that for
you.
Stay Hungry.
Stay Foolish.
Thank you all
very much.
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